Been a bit on edge today. I’m making yet another job change next week and kinda feels like my world is going to completely change. Truth be told, I’m not handling it so well. I got really pissed at Jodie because she asked me what I am doing with a big box of spare light bulbs. I’ve been swapping out a bunch of “traditional” light bulbs with LEDs but for some reason I can’t just toss the old bulbs.
I’m definitely uncomfortable about having to change again – a new boss, new territory. Lot of new. I’m also sad to say good-bye to my friends at work.
But my biggest fear and worry is that I’ll see my kids much less. My kids are my world and I want to spend every minute possible with them, especially at this age when they still like their Dad. And I feel like the new job is going to require a LOT of extra time which will essentially mean, less time with the family.
But I have to remind myself, that this doesn’t HAVE to be the case AND if it’s not feeling right after a little while, I can always make a change. There’s no sense in sticking it out if it doesn’t feel right. It’s gotta be a good fit.
I know all of this but there is still resistance. I want things to stay the same for just a little bit longer. But of course, that’s just delaying the inevitable.
And the inevitable needs to happen. I gotta keep reminding myself of the upsides to this. I have to keep reminding myself that even though it feels like my entire world is going to change, it’s really not.
I have to keep my head in the right place. It feels a bit overwhelming because there seems to be a lot to get done in this last week.
But again, I have to remind myself, there’s never enough time for everything but there is always enough time for the most important things.
So I have to make sure I give this some time and some thought.
That means I have to get up earlier. Even if I am really tired an extra 30 minutes of sleep isn’t going to make much of a difference to my health and energy but it will make a huge difference to have that time to myself in the morning to get my head in the right place and then set my priorities for the day.
So that’s the plan. Get up early enough each day to have some time to myself to practice gratitude and think through the day. And then just take one day at a time. Stay present. Remember that the present moment is the most important moment and should not be at the mercy of some future event that I am worrying about and will very likely never happen.